The Big Difference!

Being different is a curse and a blessing also. It is hard for me to understand which one scores more over the other? Am i like others? Y am i different? Y does no one understand me? What do i Lack in? Or do i have something more than others? Are these questions in my head normal? Cos there are very few people whom i know say the same for themselves. Am i not mature? How Would one define Maturity? Is it the ability to understand everything yet do nothing regarding it out of own self will? Or would a person be called mature just because he does not understand anything of the world in real but still just follows the Thumb Rules, Social Rules blindly out of fear of being judged? People are continuously running behind success. What is success? Is it more important than your present life? Does a person forget to be thankful to be just alive in that pursuit of success? It is a wide belief that being content with what you have and your present self will actually hamper your growth, but what if one knows the consequences of all this growing and success. Does Growth and Progress give a man ultimate happiness? There are millions of people who are growing and successful, but still unhappy later in their lives, and they somehow die in this sadness.
One Should Try to understand life first. Because once you go ahead and be successful and progresses, you will never understand. You mind will be too tired to work out the complexities. Being Different brings about thoughts like this which will never be understood! Because everyone is not different, they wont understand that i understand. I cant make them understand that they don't understand, they are too ahead and far successful to realize the beauty of this mere life.